Updated: Aug 12, 2020
So in this last week I had another home come available that my roommates and I were ready to move into. We submitted our applications, and I offered to leave a deposit, we made plans with the property manager to sign the lease the next day. I contacted the manager the following day to confirm the meeting to sign the lease and he had already signed the lease with another tenant! WTF!
At first I was very upset, I found it very unprofessional. I sat with that for a bit and reflected on how quickly our "civilization" moves. The landlord didn't contact me confirming our arrangement before he offered the place to someone else. He said that sometimes people keep looking for houses and don't contact him if they've changed their minds. I told him, "I am not that kind of person. I do my best to keep people informed if plans change."
In my journey, I've found it so empowering to be authentic and honest when plans change. Spirit moves, and we are capable to move with spirit. By staying present with our feelings, needs and desires, we can be empowered to express these changes as they come up. Avoid waiting until the last minute, averting a difficult conversation or ignoring a confrontation. In the past, I have neglected my feelings, which could have led to resentments. Holding resentment is poison. Radical self responsibility transformed this resentment into medicine. By acknowledging my feelings, I share them and honor them without pointing the finger towards someone who didn't even have the opportunity to hear my feelings, needs or boundaries. Give people a chance to hear you speak your truth, there is medicine for each individual to learn and grow a channel of communication, trust and reverence. If you are not able to reach the person you hold old feelings with, this process can also be done by writing a letter. Then, burn the letter. Utilize the fire as a symbol of the hearts capability to transmute energy. "...When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze." (Isaiah 43:2) Ashes of the past will fertilize the future. Give yourself and others the gift of compassion and kindness and all can be healed.
After expressing my disappointment to the landlord, he was apologetic and refunded us the application fee. Honesty gives back!
So the house hunt continues... we looked at another strong possibility for a home yesterday. Applications in, waiting to hear back... we shall see where we will land, as all aligns with the greater plan.
In Divine Time.